I’m halfway through my 30 day challenge. If you missed the original post, you can read it here. It’s been a really interesting journey so far. I’m learning a lot about myself, and the barriers to creativity and productivity that were preventing me from being the artist I want to be are starting to crumble, day by day.
Before I started the challenge, it seemed SO hard to get to work. I hadn’t really thought about the reasons… there was always just some kind of invisible force working against me. When I thought about it, I realized that I must be making actual excuses, even if they were subconscious. You can’t fix the problem if you don’t know what you’re up against, so I took out a piece of paper, and I made a note of the ‘reasons not to make beads’ during the first week of the challenge.
Day 1: My arm hurts.
Day 2: I feel tired and achy.
Day 3: I had a busy day and I should probably be cleaning the house instead.
Day 4: I don’t feel like it.
Day 5: It’s too late in the day.
Day 6: I’m out of propane!
Day 7: My neck hurts.
When I looked at the excuses I was making, in writing, I couldn’t believe how pathetic they sounded. I’m a little embarrassed to share them with you, actually. THIS was what was keeping me from expressing myself, from doing something I love to do? I felt so silly. And I was so mad at myself. All those wasted hours.
After the first week, something interesting started to happen. I realized that the excuses were becoming fewer and fewer, and the work was just happening. The mental anguish was kind of slipping away. It just seemed normal that I was going to get to the torch at some point during the day, even if it was at 10 PM, even if I was tired, even if I didn’t feel like it.
Once I made the commitment to working every day (except the weekends!), and I pressed on, no matter what the ‘excuse of the day’ happened to be, I started to feel like I was doing something important. Something worthwhile. Every day was a gift to myself, and practicing self-discipline, as hard as it’s been, has been invaluable. I feel better about my work, I feel better about myself, and most importantly, I’m having FUN. And isn’t that what it’s all about?
What excuses are preventing you from following your passions?